thoreau says

However mean your life is, meet it and live it: do not shun it and call it hard names. Cultivate poverty like a garden herb, like sage. Do not trouble yourself much to get new things, whether clothes or friends. Things do not change, we change. Sell your clothes and keep your thoughts. God will see that you do want society.

what things do i have in my life, that seemed so necessary at first? the cute roxy top [my only brand name clothing], that pan that baked a giant cupcake, that swatch of fabric, that new book. why can’t i borrow, create, sell, donate, recycle items instead of this never-ending stream of buying.

why do i need to watch fashion tv, concern myself with matters that won’t make a difference in the years to come. i don’t care what john legend wore to the grammies. it shouldn’t matter which boys i “like” or who likes me. i hate valentine’s day season.

guys and dolls

paradise. two weeks. i gambled in green pastures. the dice were my cousins and the dolls were agreeable with nice teeth and no last names.

guys and dolls is so…pointless.

and yet, i love it because of the memories it has for me. it was our school play in sixth grade.

you know

it’s very difficult to maintain an antimaterialistic, thoreau-like perspective, when stuck at home around my brother’s birthday.

behind me right now, my brothers are playing video games, AND READING OVER MY SHOULDER.

it’s especially difficult with mother complaining about how this is up for millions to see.

the point of this blog was to convey my personal philosophy, the deepest thoughts i have and the most complex, ephemeral theories. instead it just became a mess of rants, grumblings, and pointless babble like that found on so many other blogs.

how is it

i haven’t written since the jack breakup?

a major lapse on my part

since i’ve had 1…2…3…4…5! crushes

and gotten over three of them

i’ve been told i’m cute

that i’m a truly unique person

that i think like thoreau

and that …. used to like me?

someone liked me! and i missed it!

damn.

i found some cool recipes

there’s the Pretzel Pralines

and the intense oddity of Tampon Cozies

“I warn you. You’re going to find tampons in there. And then I’ll make you eat them.”

I made a great speech about materialism but I forgot it

I made a giant cupcake with my new Wilton® Giant Cupcake Pan

i feel whimsical today

but now i leave you to make toffee for the lil brother’s birthday

i will be back with more to say i’m sure